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Monday the 28th of November 2005

8:52 AM (1456 days, 19h, 12min ago)

Released from InLaw "prison"....

  • InsaNity:
  • Noise: None can you believe it?
  • Thinking: All Is well All Is Well....
  • Weather: omg! It is freeeezing!!!

 Wednsday night michael's family called at 2 am because they were stranded 75 miles from us with a blown tire and needed Mike to pick them up.So he got out of bed and left to rescue them.They decided to come in a van that's less than reliable.They didn't get to my house till 4:00 am. Mike failed to tell me his mother was brining his 3 lovely children until wedsnday night and I just kept thinking why do they want to be here if Damien makes them so uncomfortable? I know I know horrible of me to feel this way about them but I just couldn't help it from the last time I felt completely uncomfortable after his mother made it so clear little Mikie not only didn't like us together,but was angry and throwing a hissy fit due to my son being born for 14 years old he acts like he's 5,Jasmine was completely welcome but I didn't feel Damien was. And then to top it off with all the questions of why he had hints of red in his hair,or why was he so small since the other children were all 10 lbs? Which just frustrated the hell out of me because his "daughter" Monica who is 9 and looks absolutely nothing like Mike,she's half black with curly kinky hair,where as his other 2 sons,Jasmine and Damien all look identical to him same straight hair, nose, feet, everything lol the only thing my little ones got from me is my eyes. And I know it shouldn't matter and it doesn't about monica not being his but to me they are questioning the wrong child and it just needs to stop. but hey I thought maybe I'm just reading more into it and turning into a real bitch! No I was right, the first thing his mother says when she held the baby Thursday morning was " oh now he looks more like Mike, oh yes his features are coming in now I was beginning to wonder haha," laughter after she says it,it was funny to her I guess, I wanted so badly to point out the little girl with dark curly kinky hair and say "well how do you explain tha when the other kids look completely identical,but that was just childish ya know. So I took my baby from her and walked into my bedroom.I was frustrated and needed to take a shower so I gave the baby to Mike and Jasmine was running around,when I get out of the bathroom Mikie is holding Damien and I should have been hapy but it was like why is the brat even trying now? Yea my hormones were raging.I kept telling myself to shut the hell up and quite being so bitchy but it was hard. I went into the kitchen after Mike's mom left with his uncle to go get the van they abandoned the night before and tried to let it all go, Margaret Michaels cousins daughter who was over last weekend was dropped off by her dad whom I was now angry at because it turns out the last time they were here and Mike and him were drinking and decided to leave to another friends house without so much as saying anything to me, had been telling Mike that night that he should watch me and just be careful because I might cheat on him or something and Mike again didn't tell me this until wednsday! and he didn't just tell me he actually questioned me about it!He was like well it just sounds suspicious why would he say that? and i'm like "hello, he and his wife just split like 2 weeks ago and he's looking for a party partner! it's kinda like why should anyone else be happy if he's not you know"  it pissed me off! and now He was staying for Thanksgiving? why am I being forced to be around people who do not like me? and before all of this I had never done anything to make them feel this way about me, to be telling him all these things just isn't right. If anything I think Mike needs to check his cousin because if it's anyone being deceitful or anything it's xavier not me!I told Mike he needed to question his motives not mine! Anyways,dinner wasn't done till about 7:00 pm we ate and then I retired to the room for the rest of the night. Friday was much better since I told myself I'd just ignore stupidity and not let them get to me. Margaret was going to be spending the weekend with us as well while daddy went home which is 60 miles from us wich is fine cause I really would have been irratated if I had to see his face one more day!

 All together there was 5 adults and 8 kids in my 2 bedroom apartment can you feel how crampt it was in here?!  lol...

That night the girls sat with me in my room talking about everything from school,food,family,babies and much more.The slept in my room that night and the day ended well but Mike had to work Saturday so that would mean It'd be me and his family...alone!....

When I got up his mom had made breakfast and cleaned the kitchen. The kids were playing video games, and the ones that were'nt were in Rene's room. The day went fairly fast compared to how I thought it would go annd his mom and I talked a bit about the kids and the weather and other non interesting stuff. Little Mikie talked to me a bit too but then needede to get out I suppose so he and his brother left for a walk. And then his mom has to say something gain to let me know those kids are uncomfortable around me cause she says well he needed to go for a walk he's so frustrated you know, he needs to be out now, not so close to some people you know how it is. and she gets up to throw some clothes in the laundry. whatever I thought I could careless. so I fed Damien and Jasmine, vacuumed and did light cleaning. Mike didn't get home till about 6:45 pm that night then his mom went to the store and she bought both babies diapers and Damien formula which I do appreciate! She tries to be nice I suppose but then at times makes it obvious that she's so much more close to the other kids and Mikes ex. whatever you know I'm not gonna kiss ass to make someone like me or except my children it just seems so forced to me sometimes but then again I could just be one crazy hormone having bitch lol. They left Sunday at around 10 am and I told Mike to tell Xavier to pick margaret up before his family left! Mike told him like 3 times and he was there early alright but he didn't leave until like 11 am making small talk and I'm telling you it makes me uncomfortable because I don't know wether he is trying to prove a point to Michael or if it's something else, but I'm tired of being questioned about something or someone I have no intention on doing! he just kept asking things like what I had planned for the rest of the day and little crap like that and finally I was like well I got things to do and Mike don't get home till around 5 so I'll have him call you or something, he got the hint I suppose and they left. I called mike to let him know that his cousin stayed longer than he was supposed to and that he kept asking such weird questions and all he said was oh its ok. excuse me it's ok? then why the hell am I'm getting the 3rd degree about my motives with him when he's the one making stupid ass small talk staying longer when he knows it makes Mike uncomfortable, so once again I was mad at Mike because he questions me but the not the people he should be. I was never like this but my last relationship taught me alot about tolerence the more you have the more they walk all over you. I was really close to my exs family but when I left the situation they all turned on me and I'm just not about to have that happen again which is why I say I'm not gonna kiss ass you either like me or don't either way I don't give a damn just keep your opinions to yourself. I have no more tolerance for bs anymore, I used to be so laid back and quiet and just kept to myself that did no good people just seen someone they could step on, well no more I am so fed up with fake ass people! Why fake it if you dont like someone and then talk behind their back which is exactly what his cousin is doing. And as for his mom and kids well they can either except us or not but I already went out of my way to try and be caring and nice and they have the nerve to act the way they do, you can only try with someone for so long but if they still don't like you move on don't worry about it. I've got plenty in my day to worry about other than people talking amack however I don't want to hear it either.

Besides those few incidents Thanksgiving was good and the weekend was ok as well nothing too horrible, but still. SO now it's all ove and guess what!....They might come back for christmas!! Then we get to do it all over again...yipee......

I think I'm like a week away from "Menstuating" and since I had the baby I am just as bitchy as ever the week before I start hopefully the bitchyness wears down soon

8 Felt the InsaNity::.

Posted by Aidan/Lawry Penninger/Smiley:

Hi hon,
I am glad that you survived the family time! I am afraid I just don't deal well with it at all. With that many people in one place for that long how did you maintain your sanity?
Take care,
Aidan
Monday the 28th of November 2005 @ 7:20 PM (1456 days, 8h, 44min ago)

Posted by Christina CG:

Sorry about the family hun... I can't figure them out... what's not to like about you?

~ C
Tuesday the 29th of November 2005 @ 10:41 AM (1455 days, 17h, 23min ago)

Posted by Snow Wolf:

Family can lead to insanity, that's my personal belief, lol.
I'm sorry you went through such a rough time, you really have my sympathy.
I hope you're getting some much needed and well earned rest.
Take care
Sunday the 4th of December 2005 @ 4:46 PM (1450 days, 11h, 18min ago)

Posted by Sevina Imogen Snape:



I have been very naughty and don't deserve anything
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Sunday the 18th of December 2005 @ 4:40 AM (1436 days, 23h, 24min ago)

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You must navigate the god's tretcherous waters:::Tretchery is everywhere.
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