::Thoughts Of a
Trapped In Her Own Mind::
My Joys And Trials Of Being A Young Mom And Learning To Over Come Obstacles:
I refuse to be a victim or another statistic I am a fighter and a survivor.. I am a wife, A mother and yet still a young girl..I have always believed I have more of a purpose here in life..Maybe that's why I was given many struggles.. I have struggled with Depression for some time now though I didn't know it till after I was diagnosed with Post Partum Depression and found out later depression had been part of my life for some time....I ask myself everday who am I? and why am I here?...For me my biggest accomplishment so far is my babies..They have taught me so much mostly to appreciate life itself and how to enjoy every moment of my life with them..I only wish I didn't have to be lost to my fears and that I could control the thoughts that run deep within me..I fight everyday to stay strong.. Not only for me..For the little lives I have created..In hopes that one day,They will look at me and say.. She wasn't perfect but she tried,and maybe my trials will be their strength and they will know to never give up..To keep reaching and you will acheive... *Devi0us*




Still gratefull for winning!!
Nauseous from i dunno what!
Thought For The Moment:: Still Excited over winning J.O.T.W!!
Yesterday was a full Day! Michael has been off these past 2 days.On Wednsday we watched movies pretty much all day.Except I had to do some dirty work in my kitchen
Once again Rene didn't cose the Jelly all the way and it became a gooey sticky mess in the fridge! I would have waited for him to get home from school and clean it but I figured What the hell? I'm already washing dishes and hadn't taken a shower yet so might as well clean that too. I washed the shelves and just wiped up the inside of the fridge since it wasn't as bad as I had thought but I was still grossed out by the jelly. Afteerwards I tuned in to see what was on tyra and she was updating the newest model to get booted off of America's Next Top Model,Corny Yes But I love that show!! I never miss an episode. Anyhoo's Yesterday started off pretty good,got up took a shower got the kids dressed and we headed off to pay bills "yay
" However before we left I ate some left over BBQ Chicken I had made the night before and 20 minutes after I felt a bit nauseous but didn't think much of it since I have had problems with nausea since I was about 6 years lucky me i got stuck with a thing called G.E.R.D which is Gastro Esophegeus Reflux Disease that basically pushes acid up from your stomach and feels really yucky!And causes nausea,Anyhoo When we were in the car driving around it felt a bit worse but then would quickly fade so i just put it out of my mind.We ran around paying bills I had to call the cable company because i wasn't sure how much i needed to pay,Turned out i supposedly owed $345.00
I 'm like are you kidding me?!? They were already supposed to discount my account because some idiot put 2 modems on my bill which added an extra 54. dollars to my bill and the dumb ass broad said they did but before they had even fixed the problem my bill was only 200. so how the hell after the discount did they get an extra 100?!?!? And she said it would need to be payed in full because they were already set to shut off my service. I argued with her for about 20 minutes and got absolutely nowhere,we just didn't have the full amount and that is just an awful lot! So mike was irratated and i was mad
.Plus we wanted to be able to go visit family this week,it just completely ruined the weekened! WHen we got home it was a quarter to 4 and i was like "hey why don't we just go down there?" "for, what? they'll just tell us the same thing" Mike said "plus we don't have the slightest idea where the company even is" so i looked it up on the internet ,got directions and 30 minutes later we arrive. it wasn't packed and good thing too because miss Jasmine decided to use the bathroom
and in the midst of the rush to get to the cable company before it closed i didn't bring any diapers (what a mom) I usually keep some in the car and to my surprise there was none in there,so i put her blanket around her and my sweater to keep anyone from smelling lol.It worked too. When we get up to the counter i explain to the lady what I had told the girl on the phone and asked to make a payment she said i was schedualed to be cut off and i said i hadn't gotten a statement saying that so she talked to one of the managers and Voila i was able to pay the minimum balance and got my bill cut in half
by asking for a lower package that you can pay for the year.SO I still got all my channels i was already getting along with my internet fo $70 bucks a month! much cheaper than it was before!! Mike and I were both happy after that! Never talk to them on the phone it is sooo much better to do it in person they almost never want to lose a custumer! Afterward we went home,I changed "stinkies" cleaned up a bit and started dinner. Afterwards I still wasn't feeling too well and was up all night not feeling well.I tried to sleep but I felt so nauseous I just kept on waking up! So hopefully we will get to go because I still feel yucky
This morning I thought I was really gonna lose it
I was praying like.. well like a person who prays alot lol! Begging and pleading not to be sick!! Ohhh How I hope I feel much better tomorrow!! I don't wanna be sick all weekened!
AWwww... I hope you feel better
Hi hon,
Hi hon,
I hope that you all feel better soon! Take care!