And waiting is the hardest part!! Jasmine isn't too much better yet.Her ears still hurt quite a bit so I have been giving her some ear drops as well as the antibiotics and her cough is horrible so I giver her cough medicine as well.I was worried about giving her too much meds but the Pharmacist and Dr. both said it was safe and put her a little more at ease with the coughing.I try to space the meds atleast 2- 3 hours apart and give both twice a day.Despite that fact that there hasn't been too much improvement she is playing more and her eyes don't look quite as sad.Rene is now mostly completely better and Damien has a stuffy nose but I really hope that's as far as his condition will get! I am just a bundle of nerves at this point because them being sick just worries the heck out of me. My throat has felt a little scratchy and my ear pops when I swallow so I may be getting sick too. But it's better me than them. I had  a W.I.C Appointment this morning luckily it was really fast!I was in such a rush this morning that in the midst of getting everything ready I had forgotten to grab Damien's bottle I swear I thought I put it in his diaper bag but when I went to check for it once we got to the clinic it was'nt there! I felt like such a horrible mother!Of all the things you can forget how can you forget that?! Luckily he slept most of the time and he had just ate before we left so he wasn't hungry.Thank Goodness I wasn't gone longer than 30 minutes.He sits in his swing now happily gulping down his bottle and watching t.v but I felt soooo bad.I have been so forgetful lately,That's another part of the hormones..Forgetfulness,it can be really frustrating at times, I just have so many things going on and so much to remember that it is sometimes hard to keep track!Other than that though, lately, I have felt great!!I feel really happy And am really enjoying my babies right now.Almost everything they do lately makes me smile.I hope that This feeling last a great while! I get soooo tired of being sad and depressed that it is GREAT when I feel good. I have been praying for strength and for God to help me with my emotions and help me to enjoy my time with my babies because they won't stay babies forever! I also pray for the strength to fight my depression and find positive ways to relieve my pain and sadness. I really feel he is working in my life and helping me better understand my trials. since I prayed and asked for his love I have felt sooo much happier.When I prayed I asked for him to use me to do his will and I leave my life in his hands and I hope to hear something soon but that if it wasn't Him speaking in my life to please not let me hear it,see it, or think it. I think that it can be really easy to get his words mixed with something unwanted.Temptation and Sin I so much easier to find.And I no longer want to feel sad and burdened nor do I  want anything less than positive in my life.I truly am tired of suffering and trying to do this on my own. I need the Lord in my life and I feel alot better knowing I have Him to walk with me in my times of need!I have had so many insecurities and negative things in my life about the only thing positive is my children. I have decided to try my hardest to be happy with me and have made a point to pick out things i am happy with myself and things I want to improve.That may help me to see where I want to be in life and where I need to improve. I am so determined to make a positive difference I just need to hear my calling in which direction in life to go. And it starts with improving ME.