::Thoughts Of a
Trapped In Her Own Mind::
My Joys And Trials Of Being A Young Mom And Learning To Over Come Obstacles:
I refuse to be a victim or another statistic I am a fighter and a survivor.. I am a wife, A mother and yet still a young girl..I have always believed I have more of a purpose here in life..Maybe that's why I was given many struggles.. I have struggled with Depression for some time now though I didn't know it till after I was diagnosed with Post Partum Depression and found out later depression had been part of my life for some time....I ask myself everday who am I? and why am I here?...For me my biggest accomplishment so far is my babies..They have taught me so much mostly to appreciate life itself and how to enjoy every moment of my life with them..I only wish I didn't have to be lost to my fears and that I could control the thoughts that run deep within me..I fight everyday to stay strong.. Not only for me..For the little lives I have created..In hopes that one day,They will look at me and say.. She wasn't perfect but she tried,and maybe my trials will be their strength and they will know to never give up..To keep reaching and you will acheive... *Devi0us*




A little better now that Jasmine has meds.
Please not Damien too
cold but sunny

Poor Jasmine, I called Mike yesterday at work around 12:30 when jasmine started coughing and choking at the same time due to being badly congested. I felt so bad for her. Michael came home and she was sitting by the couch wrapped up in her blanket holding her bottle and watching LazyTown,her poor eyes were red and she looked so unhappy! But as soon as daddy walked through the door her eyes perked up and she gave him a big smile and ran to hug him,she must've thought he was home for good because she sat down and tried to untie his shoes lol
. He thought it was the cutest thing ever! Then he picked her up I got Damien and their diaper bag and we headed to the dr.s. On the way there the radio was on and I was telling Mike about how she was feeling when she starts singing
. He looks back and is like "She's actually moving her lips singing along with the song
" He's like "is it normal for a 15 month old to do that" lol "She's been singing like that for a couple weeks" I told him. she looooves music. Sometimes I think Michael misses being home,he works so many hours that he misses alot of the cute things she does. Hmm,now how come she could'nt act perky at home?? Anyways we arrive at the dr.s office and thankfully she was the only patient! I'm like can you believe it
? I sign her in and in 10 minutes they were ready for her. We go into the room and I tell them her symptoms and the nurse says we have to get her undressed so we can weigh her. UhOh,she isn't going to like this very much
.I undress her and she is already starting to whine a bit,but when I put her on the scale she was all screams
.She weighed 26.6 lbs
.Then we got her back onto the bed and the nurse tries to listen to her heart,but jasmine isn't having it! She's crying and looking at me like "why are you letting her do this to me
???" I felt sooooooooo bad,especially because everytime she cried you could hear her chest and all that congestion
. The nurse tries to comfort her while she takes her vitals but Jasmine already didn't like her lol.So the nurse says "ok dr. will be in in a couple of minutes." and leaves. So I'm holding Jasmine and she isn't very happy with me meanwhile I'm thinking Now i know why michael didn't want to come in here, let mommy be the bad guy lol. A few minutes later the dr. comes in and introduces himself and says hello to Jasmine "hi" she says smiling
, Until I sat her down on the bed and he listened to her chest
then he layed her down and I had to hold her hands so he could look intoo her ears and mouth
."it's ok " I tell her wanting to cry myself. She was sooooo unhappy and probably hating me. Afterwards I pick her up and hug her. The dr. said "well she has a very bad ear infection in her right ear and her left ear is pink."
"SHe also has sinusitis and is really congested, So I will give her some antibiotics and hopefully she should be better in a few days." Oh my poor baby
. I was concerned about Damien catching it considering he is so small so I asked the dr about it and he said "Well basically there isn't much you can do to prevent it you can try and keep her away from him as much as possible but usually when they are that small they still have a good amount of the mothers antibodies so he should be fine." I thanked him he gave us the prescription and we headed for the Pharmacy. Oh I hope Damien doesn't catch it I feel so horrible already with just my baby girl being sick! Oh How this sucks! We got her medicine and headed home,stopping at Mcdonalds on the way to get a milkshake,which Jasmine had fun with at home,she's sick but she can still make a mess lol. I gave her the medicine as soon as she was done and she went right to Rene to play. He had a good day at school and was already done with his homework,yesterday was his last day for detention.He wrote me the sweetest letter saying he learned not to play with kids who only want to point fingers at others and he was sorry for having detention. Hopefuly he has learned! Last night Jasmine slept fairly comfortable and is still sound asleep now
Damien just woke up to eat and he sounds stuffy
.oh no pleaaaase not you too!
Sorry about what happened to your little girl, hoping she's fine now. You have won the Bronze prize of Winner Award for Diving to Titanic game,our judgement is :