::Thoughts Of a
Trapped In Her Own Mind::
My Joys And Trials Of Being A Young Mom And Learning To Over Come Obstacles:
I refuse to be a victim or another statistic I am a fighter and a survivor.. I am a wife, A mother and yet still a young girl..I have always believed I have more of a purpose here in life..Maybe that's why I was given many struggles.. I have struggled with Depression for some time now though I didn't know it till after I was diagnosed with Post Partum Depression and found out later depression had been part of my life for some time....I ask myself everday who am I? and why am I here?...For me my biggest accomplishment so far is my babies..They have taught me so much mostly to appreciate life itself and how to enjoy every moment of my life with them..I only wish I didn't have to be lost to my fears and that I could control the thoughts that run deep within me..I fight everyday to stay strong.. Not only for me..For the little lives I have created..In hopes that one day,They will look at me and say.. She wasn't perfect but she tried,and maybe my trials will be their strength and they will know to never give up..To keep reaching and you will acheive... *Devi0us*




My poor baby is sick!!
Oh my poor baby!! She woke up yesterday with her voice raspy and by last night she had such a horrible cough
. I gave her some childrens night time medicine and it helped her sleep but during the night when she would cough it sounded so ugly, I think she's got a chest cold or something.Despite not feeing great she played fine yesterday just not as much,but She has felt pretty warm all morning.It was so hard to sleep with her sounding so hoarse when she coughed, I tossed and turned all night worrying about her.Anytime they get sick I go into immediate panic lol something as simple as a cough or runny nose has me worrying,because one small thing can so quickly turn into one big thing, One of the many joys of being a parent I suppose.I can't even stand when I'm sick,so when they come down with something I feel so helpless and want more than anything to take their pain away! Oh how I wish I could wipe out sickness!! I kept wondering all night how she could have gotten sick, I'm sort of a germ freak lol and try to keep my house and their toys as clean as possible to prevent the sickies but then I remembered Rene has had a cough for about 2 weeks now that began with a bad headache and although I make sure he covers his mouth when he coughs and washes his hands,somehow those damn sick germs must have got free! Damn them
!! So now Rene is feeling better lol which is good. I guess it is true that you don't get better till the germs find a new host. It's impossible to get one child better without infecting the other babies especially because Jasmine loooves to play with Rene.Rene got sick after a kid in his class was sick.I swear school is one big germ pool lol. it just bounces from kid to kid till everyone gets it.Jasmine just woke up and sounds all but good
.She's a trooper though,she still gets up with a smile and says "mom" which makes me feel worse that all I can do is give her medicine and watch and wait to see if she gets better or worse
. If she continues to sound hoarse I'm not gonna wait I'm just going to take her to the dr.s,I hate waiting and wondering whats wrong with my babies. It's the saddest thing to have to watch your baby be sick and know you can't take her pain away
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Awwww...sorry to hear your little one is sick... I hope that she feels better soon!
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